“Can Do” Caitlan
Happy Monday, friends! This probably won't be a long or philosophical post, just a report to say that life is chugging along. After announcing all the news and settling all the plans for next school year, I finally feel like I can relax. 😊 The turbulence of decisions and worries was a bumpy ride- not to mention the feelings- but I'm content that this is where I am supposed to be right now. I am so thankful for the peace and assurance I've felt lately. While the immediate future doesn't look the way I wanted, it doesn't swallow me up anymore. I can't take any credit for that, but only thank Jesus for continuing to mold my heart and take care of my every need. Lately, that has been acceptance of the present, trust for the future, and an awareness of all His love and presence around me. Whatever needs may arise, I know He'll meet them! Facebook recently showed me an old post of mine from years ago:
"God does not ask us to go where He has not provided the means to help. Trust Him to supply courage and resources at the right moment." -Life Application Study Bible on Exodus 4:1
It was true and comforting then, and remains true and comforting today! (I could write a whole post about the Facebook memories popping up lately- and maybe I will! haha- another post for another day) So what is a girl to do when those worries aren't so heavy anymore? #CanDoSummer, that's what! 😂
Just to review, my last post ended with some excitement about the summer! I want to focus on all the things I can do instead of dwelling on everything I cannot. True to form, Andrew and I hopped in with full enthusiasm! 😍 My best friend, my cheerleader, my fellow adventurer- we lived it up! Some of the fun we've had so far + some sans-Andrew fun included...
Random coffee runs
Outdoor concerts downtown
Crawdads Baseball games
Fun new documentaries on TV
Date nights with dinner outside
Farmers market trips
A new pottery project!
Planting flowers
Several visits from sweet friends
Relay for Life
A quick beach trip
A girls day with a squishy baby and homemade lunch
...and there are probably others I can't even remember. I also started my summer online teacher training last week. I was so nervous about my first "academic" task in so long, but I was able to keep up in the Zoom call and even contribute intelligently. (Huzzah!) I'm excited to be a student this summer. 😊
Even so, "Can Do Caitlan" is tired! (haha) I have always known that I'm more of a Tuesday Afternoon girl than a Saturday Night girl, and this phase of life gives me license to lean into that. 😂 No pressure to stay out late, or do anything crazy I'd rather not. The beauty is that I can freely say, "No thanks" when I'm tired. My treatment schedule inherently provides breaks for me physically and socially. I can look at the calendar and predict when and where I'll be up for something fun. The key is to embrace the rhythm. Plan and initiate when I can, rest when it's time, and savor all of it. What a gift! I have lived much of my life overbooked and overwhelmed, and for now, I don't have to do any of it. My Type A personality feels a little guilty sometimes, but the rest of me just says, "Snuggle that cat!" ...maybe with some tea, and then go to bed early. #noshame
I hope you're embracing the rhythm where you are today, even if it's not what you predicted. I pray Jesus continues to shape all of our hearts, relaxing into the place and time and people He has gifted us today! He will continue to "supply courage and resources at the right moment." Always.
